July 2011 | back-issues, poetry
The red shred of linen cuts
Mountains into halves and
Dyes the sand crimson black,
Burning holes into copper chests.
Brackish wind, no, waves.
Tides can’t decide. They
Run away only to come back.
Dry water shimmery reflects
Bulging eyes, singed black.
Roasting jellyfishes. Die.
The air tight, sand collapse.
Suffocating reds don’t do
Bottled messages, leaving
Crumbling bones, their
Tongueless cries.
–Anny Fang
Anny Fang is a sophomore majoring in Psychology, English, and Women’s Studies. Contrary to her appearance, she likes to pursue hobbies that can only be categorized as extreme. This usually means that you may either see her chewing some book in an obscure coffee shop or bungee-jumping in a third-world country.
July 2011 | back-issues, poetry
Three black crows hop
in the deep snowy field
behind the library
The snow
glows orange
You sit in your car
engine killed
waiting for something
Nothing falls
from the cloudless night
*
There’s a point where you come to realize that this is exactly what you wanted to
happen
Why you start hiding things under your bed
neatly in bags
labeled and dated
Snipping out pictures of faces from magazines
for the simple way they feel between your fingers
how in dropping them
they resemble falling leaves
*
Your father sleeping upright on the couch
Your father screaming at you for not taking the dog out
Your father keeping the dog’s leash in his car for years after her death
Your father dying
*
The items pile up
all humming beneath you
shaking the mattress
asking you to listen
*
He isn’t dead
He’s just stopped
speaking to you
*
Someone taps on the car window
a school friend
asking for a ride
Asking too many questions
thinking you know
about something
how things end or are supposed to—
You’re not breathing but you should
You’re not listening because your ears
are packed with snow
*
Your collection
requires more stringent organization
so you begin sorting according to taste
tonguing each face
and placing them in tupperware
to keep out air
*
The white noise of winter
your friend in the passenger seat
fogging up the windows
with her living body
her kinetic body full of blood
A crow lands amongst the others
something in his beak
They fight for it
Splash of red
against the snow
–Zoe Etkin
Zoe Etkin is an MFA student at CalArts. She identifies as a poet but is also interested in hybrid forms. Etkin is a recent recipient of the Beutner Award for Excellence in the Arts. Hailing from Memphis, Etkin is interested in the South, but having lived in New Mexico and California, she infuses the West into her aesthetic.
July 2011 | back-issues, poetry
My hands feel sweaty
As I gently lift you off my lap
Your gray tail curves against my arm
And I feel as though you’re holding on
Not because you’re afraid to fall
But because you’re afraid to keep holding on
Fragile bones of starvation can be felt
Amongst the ungroomed, greasy hair
You hide away in my arms as I move on
Closer and closer towards the door
With the bell that lightly chimes
“Appointment with death”
Sounds of youthful chirps and barks
Surround us as I hold you closer
Remember when you were that small?
So playful and curious with the world
Always getting into trouble
But were always forgiven
The time when you escaped
Through a broken screen
Or when you would sneak a drink
From my glass on the floor
The countless missing hair ties
I gave up looking for
Yet you managed to win me over
With your crisp, lime green eyes
Your feminine dainty paws
That small heart shaped nose
Whiskers as white as snow
And of course, your signature meow
I will miss your calming, loud purr
Seeing your “shark fin” tail as I lay in bed
Hearing you scamper up the stairs
Petting your silky fur, rubbing your alert ears
And even finding the “present” of
A mouse at my feet
A woman calls out your name
And you look up with recognition
I pretend to not notice that these moments
Are our last together
As I kiss the top of your head
I whisper my goodbyes under my breath
And walk towards the guiding light
–Nicolle Devoto
