July 2015 | back-issues, poetry
The Bedside Book of Antique Maps
We all fray and tear a bit,
our bodies more
and more like maps
with worn edges,
that crazy serpent that threatened
the world,
now a sketch
threatened by the margin’s
inward drift,
that erosion,
that whole world pushing back
into us.
We now know that eating lemon pie
with a sadist
was a mistake.
Each line we crossed seemed part
of some great voyage
or awakening
or initiation.
We were kids,
for Christ’s sake.
We assumed all hurt
was academic,
a break in the routine and open
for discussion.
How yellow are my teeth?
How monstrous can I get
before you’ll stop
loving me?
A Brief History of Philosophy
The rain comes down. The neon sign outside blinks its otherworldly “VACANCY.” No one notices the snake nest underneath the sign where the hiss of gas through the fabricated glass tube is both a voice of reason and a mistake. It happens this way in any small town where intellectuals meet in secret to compare notes. The rain continues. In the motel’s difficult mirrors, philosophers cut themselves shaving.
She Lives in a Terrible Blue Never
knowing that you and I are taking
a break to smoke and make
tuna salad for lunch.
There is a new juniper branch
therapy. A new ape.
A million new ways
for the world to shame a voice-
over actress into taking
a bigger role.
by Glen Armstrong
Glen Armstrong holds an MFA in English from the University of Massachusetts, Amherst and teaches writing at Oakland University in Rochester, Michigan. He edits a poetry journal called Cruel Garters and has a new chapbook titled Set List (Bitchin Kitsch,) and two more scheduled for 2015: In Stone and The Most Awkward Silence of All (both Cruel Garters Press.) His work has appeared in Poetry Northwest, Conduit and Cloudbank.
July 2015 | back-issues, poetry
Find Me
Find.
Find me.
Find me a place.
To call home.
No.
No one.
No one
likes to be alone.
Find.
Find me.
Find me a place.
Where I can see.
Offer.
Offer me.
Offer me some space
where I can be me.
Give.
Give me.
Give me a choice.
Wake.
Wake me.
Wake me up.
Wake me up tomorrow when the sun is shining.
Wake.
Wake me.
Tomorrow
when the birds are singing.
i.
i am.
It’s okay.
To be.
Or not.
Nobody.
Nobody’s fool.
Love you.
I
See.
The big.
Eye.
Am. Picture this.
Picture me.
Picture us.
Can’t you.
Wonder.
Wonderful. Stream.
Of.
This.
This is.
This is the end.
This is not the end
at all.
I might fall.
Curtain call.
Now,
Wake.
Wake me.
Wake me tomorrow; when the story is over.
Wake me.
Tomorrow; when the storm has passed.
Wake me
when the sun is shining.
Find.
Find me.
Find me a place to call home…
Another Long Winter
A cold time and space,
a dark scene and place,
and dim city lights,
dirty snow and dog fights.
Another long winter
has gone by with the wind.
Another long winter
has gone by with the wind.
Stagnation, cold-blooded—
internally regulated,
go down the dusky road
in the dark about to goad.
Another long winter
has gone by with the wind.
Another long winter
has gone by.
by Daniel Giovinazzo
Daniel Giovinazzo is a graduate of Hartwick College. In addition he received an MFA from Lesley University in Creative Writing. A house-painter by trade, he has worked as a landscaper, mason-tender, line-cook, greenhouse keeper, and public educator. He has written three unpublished books. His work is the culmination of nearly thirteen years of staying up late and getting up early…
April 2015 | back-issues, poetry
Summer after chlorine saturated summer
we pretended we were cholitas,
twelve year old lambs in disguise.
I wore swap-meet Adidas breakaways over unshaved
legs and blue gray Venice Dolphin’s swimsuit.
Seventeen, our lieutenant, tiptoed lightly,
a damp towel tightly wrapped around her curves,
sang Mariah Carey’s Fantasy.
She’s Mary’s baby, her adopted baby.
Seventeen, thick with double D breasts, a hot
wanton waist and straight hair I secretly longed for.
I whisper to her – hard candy.
At fifteen she’d played with dirty dice, chupando
sandia lollipops; tamarindo con chile,
I swam laps in the pool, her voice carried;
high and sweet melting handlebars off cholito
low-rider bikes, swollen sloppy lips, saccharine
kisses, a rub down of adolescent stiffies.
She never played water polo with us.
Practicing her synchro routines, a sexy under water flamingo,
she danced for a boy I liked. I watched as he bit
her right shoulder, a small burn mark on my lips.
At night I wore flannel pajamas to her sleepover party.
She wore nothing and played digits with her boyfriend.
I reached for my inhaler.
Years later I held her hand, too much like my own
small and soft,
we buried her mother. Her father too.
She calls me on my birthday.
I love her. She’s tattooed, tired and beautiful.
Real hard candy.
Her belly was full that night.
Drops of honey dew spilled out
dimples and sparkle eyes.
She smiled when she cooed, sweet baby lamb.
Mother. Seventeen.
by A. R. Castellanos
Born and raised in Los Angeles, A. R. Castellanos writes poetry, fiction and memoir that draw upon her vibrant and tenacious ancestral heritage in Guatemala and California. Her conjured worlds encompass feral spirits, otherworldly legends, and the disconcerting realities of domestic workers in Hollywood celebrity homes.
April 2015 | back-issues, poetry
I sat among the books and the shelves rattled and shook
The covers flying open as the words wrestled their way out, shattering the air with a collective shout,
Settling down into a song the words took shape, rising and falling each one struggling to find it’s space
The melody began, drifting, dancing
Lazily the tune took me like a stream, each turn and bend showing me a new dream
The harmony joined in, as I looked upon the banks and saw the rolling hills and fields ready to be filled with whatever my mind could make
The stronger words decided to have their turn, as the stream gained strength and a river was born
Dropping me down in frigid waters, and the song was gone and the only sound was the chatter of my teeth
Then I burst through again, and drawing breath, riding the crest of the wave, I found myself at the sea and knew I could stay afloat
As the sun warmed my skin, I heard the sweet hymn once more, and looked out and saw forever stretched across the shore
by Crawford Krebs
Crawford Krebs is eighteen years old and lives in South Carolina.
April 2015 | back-issues, poetry
Self-help book publishers
Looking for old answers
In new packaging
Of crafty cover art
Catered to mid-life upstarts
Caught up in life’s heist
Stealing unpredictable
Trust fund diamonds
Hiding from the sun’s glare
Seeks futility’s self-awareness
Posing as repressed confessions
Yet still contributes to yearly profits
by Charlie Weeks
Charlie Weeks is the type of guy who writes with any liquid poison soaking in his mind. He has been recently published in lit mags such as the Dr. T.J. Eckleburg review and Summer edition of Haunted Waters.
April 2015 | back-issues, poetry
In every family photograph
I see what isn’t there,
the change in my face,
my father’s gestures,
my mother’s hair.
I search through the box of photographs
for evidence. The fights we didn’t hear.
The book and its damning inscription.
Do I imagine the rift in the photograph,
the four of us on the couch in Texas at Grandpa’s house?
Mom is holding me still
her hands on my upper arms
as I lean toward the edge of the frame.
Eddie is resting against Dad,
his whole body balanced,
a weight on my father’s knee.
Dad leans away.
Mom looks dazed, her smile as static
as the turned up ends of her plastered hair.
I read an article years ago about how you could
tell which Hollywood stars were breaking up
by paying attention to body language in candid photographs.
Do I imagine our demise
in the way my parents lean away from each other,
in the way my brother tries to hold them still,
in the way I struggle to escape?
by Lori Gravley
Lori Gravley writes poetry, fiction, and creative nonfiction. She earned her MFA from the University of Texas at El Paso. She has published poems and essays in a variety of journals, including Flights, Ekphrasis, and Mock Turtle Zine. She has work forthcoming in Crack the Spine and I-70 Review. She lives just outside of Yellow Springs, Ohio between a meadow and a cornfield.
